Getting To One-Nineteen

118-2-go asked: I'm sorry your having such a hard time hun :( I really think this is all about the lifetime commitment we make. It's never going to be easy. We will always have our ups and our downs. We just have to remember it's worth pushing through. We never want to go back to THAT place again. I'm here for you if you ever need to talk/vent outside of tumblr :)

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Yea, last year got really tough in October. My other grandfather died, and then my uncle died and I just gave up. I am back up to 240 but everyday I tell myself I am going to start over but I think tonight I really mean it and I really need to stop putting off for tomorrow and just do it