Getting To One-Nineteen

In an effort to truly get back on track, I feel one of the first things I NEED to do is start writing about how I feel again. Because at least this way, I am accountable for the things I do and everything is not just in my head. I have been off track for over a month and all I want is to go back to that place where I had nothing but determination and confidence that I would reach my goals because that is what I really want. Last night when I was at the gym on the elliptical was thinking, look how close I am to being under 200 pounds. I am less than 20 pounds away. I have lost almost 20% of my weight. I haven’t been under 200 pounds since middle school probably and I want more than anything that. So I need to stop giving in to eating fattening things, I need to start exercising regularly again, I need to like myself again because I was happy. So I know its 7 days already into the month but I am going to do this. I am going to be the person that I know is inside.